• “When is the agonizing pain stop?!” 
• “I really would kill for a Dr. Pepper right about now.”  
• “What the heck is he doing to me?!”  ”Ouch, ouch!”  
• “I feel like someone slapped me upside the face with a baseball bat!”  
• “I’m pretty sure that I resemble Two-Face right about now.”
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Life can seem almost terrifying and tear jerking when you find out by your doctor that you have abnormal cell changes going on in your cervix.  Leaving yourself to wonder, “Can I get pregnant?”, “Am I healthy?”, and most importantly,”Will I be able to live my life?”.  

I learned that I was diagnosed with HPV last year of November 2011.  I remember that phone call from the doctor’s office as if it was yesterday.  I remember the Medical Assistant saying to me over the phone, “Your Pap smear results were abnormal. We’re going to need to refer you to a OBGYN’s office.”  I remember my intial response after that phone call ended. 

I was in tears and almost felt as if I was going to vomit suddenly out of nowhere.  I thought my life was going to end not too long after that phone call.  After my mild freak out I decided to educate myself about my condition and of course I had to schedule frequent Pap Smears regarding my condition.  

It’s been eight months since I first learned of my abnormal cell growth.  I went in for another Pap Smear to find out a week later by my physician that I still have mild dysplasia on my cervix.  He acted as if it were a very mild case of cervical dysplasia and he needed me to schedule a follow up to see why I have abnormal Pap tests.  

Of course, after this phone call I was sad and scared again.  Yet, I decided to read more on HPV facts.  I learned that the chances of developing cervical cancer can be rather rare.  However, with that being stated it is VERY important for women to get an annual pelvic exam done!  

Next week, I will have to go in for my follow up as I try to put a brave face on.  I am thankful to have the love and support of my boyfriend, friends, and family that know of my condition.  I just hope to be able to concur this obstacle for once and for all. 

I don’t get all this silly abbreviations that is used in modern communication. Like SMH in particular is one of them. Really? What’s the point in using these useless terms. This just bewilders me to where there is no beginning. Modern communication is dull and confusing.